The Pre-Rain Smell takes away my breath

alright so i think i'll be posting here more frequently now.
"keep it short and sweet", they say, but isit really short AND sweet? maybe its short and not sweet, or it can be sweet but really really long.
how do u like it when you ask someone something and they jus reply haha ok bye (:
how would u feel ? well i'd feel rlly bummed. like rlly sad and all.
anw, tests are on tues and weds and aftr that im free for holidays. probably hit the gym everyday, go running etc.
but coming back, i'd first like to thank JUNICE LIM SOME THING well for practically all the things that she's done for me haha
her name's come up on this livejournal for quite sometime already eh.
ANYWAY, yes thankzxc yoozahzxc .only a text/call away ;)
but yeah. people say i think too much, and yes i do think that i think too much. wait here i go thinking again. anw, leave comments okayy, on whethr i think too much or not. and say it seriously please!.really really seriously.
and well. i really hope all goes well now.
i actually tght of using the freebie ( a notebook) from what i bought for her to write down stuffs thats been happening btwn us but i think i'll jus write it here. and keep that book for my studies.no wait i'll jus keep it. for keepsakes.

heyyyy i jus realised i havnt posted in this journal for ages.! haha
anw, thers sooooooooooo manythings i wnted to post about, but i jus forgot. shit. haha
hmm anw, its been about a week now, more than a week actually, and u still have that in ur relationship status, so i guess, we're not meant to be.
and to anthr person out there, i jus cant believe u actually deleted me off FB, lol.
anw, ever stare up at the sky, and u see the clouds moving and u tell ur self hey, skys moving, and isnt it so cool where u see the clouds and all
would it be even cooler if i told u that u were actually moving too ? cuz the sky doesnt move, but the earth does.
anw.
singaporeans are really held up, i say this cuz of experience.
trust me. u cant go up to someone and say hi and expect a good response.
anw, i rlly forgot what t say alrdy, well cya!

i really am not concentrating right now, in my life, at this point of time.
lol.
u knw what happened, i tght that by goin t th gym to work out and stuff, i'd probably take my mind off her for a lil while, instead it did not do that, but it jus made her seem more obvious and all her actions and everything that i shud do become more clear.
but i still rlly dont know what to do now.
im probably living in denial, so much denial.
u know what else happened? while walking home from gym, it was raining and all, and than i tght that well would u b caught in the rain or are u somewhere doing smthing, helping ur mom or smthng, and than i jus kept thinking and i nearly bumped into this lampost.
so totally embarrassing, i stopped halfway and jus walked away.
being a basketball player, its understandable that i should b able to like 'sense' this kinda stuffs like if thrs someone or smthng infront i'll auto move, but than yeah.u clouded my mind lol.
sigh i rlly dont know what to do now
its like everytime , i go online, i'll go search for her, in msn, on skype, on facebook. and everytime, everysingle time, its her facebook profile status updates that really breaks my heart, jus saddens me really.but well what right do i have to tell her to post something that doesnt do that to me, or what right do i have to be sad because of that? NONE.
sigh.
iknow i know, my post may sound emo-itic or gothic or whatever, but im not kay , im jus rlly pissed,vex,fustrated,fuckedup,everything. everysingle thing cept emo.
i bet if the girl u have a crush on/like does the same thing as my girl that i like on her facebook page, u'd probably b feeling the same as i am right now.
"click here to insert one big sigh" -clicks-
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say

i dno if i lost my chance alrdy, or if its not here yet.
sigh

this post is probably a lil obvious as to who i like, and well i rlly rlly doubt that person ever comes here to read it.
furthrmore, i think ive been giving hints to that person alot alrdy, and well.if u ever come across this, i rlly hope u'd give me something back so i'd know what to do.